I have yet to come across another player who has even come close to the amount of trouble you caused with your time on SCP:RP. As you mentioned, you intentionally got yourself blacklisted from almost every single branch, every single job, and you thought it was amusing. The staff members who were constantly called to sits regarding you didn't find it amusing, but you didn't care. You had a complete disregard for the MOTD, and had no regard to change. So please do excuse me if it seems a bit hard to accept you want to change when there has yet to be as unapologetic of a person I have banned even to this day.
If you really believe you have changed and you feel bad, why would you say this when you were discussing your ban in Igneous' Stream earlier?: http://prntscr.com/u0qcoi (Clue in for those who don't know: I was the event manager at the time, so I can only assume that this is in regards to me; the issuer of the ban. If I'm wrong, I do apologize.)