Hello
I don't know any real way to start this, so I'll just start off with this
I'm tired
It has been a LONG 4 years (wow…) and I have learned and done so many things in my time. It has been a blessing to meet (most) of you here. I still try to remember most of the people I’ve met, even going all the way back to Bison Hoof (ew…), and then moving on to the Italian Goons and the Jacks, back when I told myself I would never join a branch because of all the drama that I had heard about. It took a lot of convincing to get me to join CI and install Teamspeak, but eventually I was pushed along, and soon later (1 year after joining? idk) I would be named J0LT. I know it is very repetitive to just say “things were simpler back then”, but they truly were. These early days allowed me to shape who I am today. I had gone through many ups and downs in my time as CI, and had up and down relations with those people, who I understand now more than ever. Once I had joined Nu7 for no reason (iykyk) I began to have a larger understanding of other people on this server. It seems like not long ago that little miss J0LT got DHFTO and HSU, which would be the reasons I stayed in Nu7, which eventually becomes HFTO and head of HSU, while also being head of E4 at the time. Back then, that was likely my largest achievement, that I would be remembered for being one of the only people to be head of 2 SFs (especially when those 2 branches hated each other a ton). And to then become the first and only person to receive the Anubis award. Eventually my time ran out in CI, at the time, this seemed like the most biased decision ever made against me (just you wait). Looking back now, I don't know why I was mad. Nu7 was my main focus for a long time before that. My experience in CI has really shown me what the server can be, and should have been a forewarning of the nepotism that would haunt me for the rest of my time, but yet, these people would likely be my greatest influence for the rest of my time. Skipping a bunch of boring time as a MAJ in Nu7 (over a year), I would eventually break past this DNP (bop is real asf…) and prove my worth. Why I didn't leave then, no idea. But I did make it further, eventually to VCMDR and then CMDR (9>1). I won't leave any comments of how I did, that's for you guys to decide. I don't know what i'm really talking about anymore, I guess the moral of my story is to never give up. I know it may seem like right now I am giving up, due to my recent demotion to VCMDR, but this is just something that has been meddling for a long time. Through what seemed like impossible times in my life, the people that I have met here have changed my life in many ways, and I am super glad to have met all of you. However, i have grown very tired of that nepotism that I mentioned earlier, and it has really driven me over the edge. I have lost control of the vision I had for my branch, so there is no point in me trying anymore. I've been a very busy gal recently and GL is just not an interuption I can manage anymore. Maybe in the future I could come back, and yes I will make sure my CCs do not go inactive. It has been a very long time coming, and I honestly hate that I have to go, but I just don't have the time or mindset to deal with this stuff anymore. I will still try to hang out in discord, and anyone can message me at any time of course.
For anyone that may be wondering, this was not forced like my last huge post.
I know a lot of people wtf
If i forget you, pm me and i will likely add you
Piller - you have been one of my greatest friends on this server, and I am so glad to have met you. You have helped me change so much, despite our ups and downs, I am so glad to have you as a friend and am super happy that I know I can still talk to you
Bread: omg hai :3 hru haiii
Eclipse: e4 at pvt is fire | I still talk to you idk | helped me girl :3
Pixel: mango :3 | Actual definition of stimming
Ayaya: abababaaaa | We're rich | #1 yipee-r
Shadows: ….. | (Im hiding from 939)
Skela: always high | “next time you see me, you best be well aware”
Enuz: kill all the what now | keep pulling girls in your minivan
Orange: i dont have any specific memories but ur kewl
Coltable: see above
Arussso: cool mirror pic
Funk: The shooters in question
Bop: got me out of the DNP, fire asf. I hated you for a while though
Crabbo: karen?
Eaten: zeppelin wars
Toaster: ^ but A14
Lee: Most active person on this server EVER
Warren: popcorn bruh wtf
M8VP: you were really quiet idk
Fizzy: banned for LAN sucks to suck
Lefty: opp…
Saint: i hate you
Silver & propane: yall were pretty much the same person
Jeff (CI): you suck at mf ball game
Grey: bro really tried to copy me in CI and Nu7
Ignis: idk dawg you say i lot of dumb stuff i couldnt think of one
Hope: :michiunimpressed:
Sosok/altair: unintelligible half the time idk
Jackwebb: lol you got reported for WHAT
Jack crest: bri'ish
Heinz: ponytail
Kami: a WHAT bind
Cogs: sucks at fnaf
Pills: og asf, we will still play minecraft prob idk
Eyelander: sucks at roblox scary
Dick grayson: dont get me started
Gar: same with ignis idk and i kept getting you confused with jeff
Cecil: fumo friday
Weiss: see above + super fishy mondays
Thin: admin abused lol
Plantbruh: we dont talk about that culvers date you had
Lannie: ombgus
Catalyst: nerd
Cloaker: i forgot but hi
Raymond: brotha can't figure out google forms
Tackie: pre football game pogging | "nooo i wanted to groom you" ur wierd asf
Ghopit: textbook raid goes hard
Coint: happy valentines day or something
Zero: idk something about your hair i forgot
Purp: halo gif
Zboz: XBOX LIVEEE
Zarl: *foghorn*
Aussie: stop getting captured
Dang: you wanna know if i have a circumference? erm
Phill: otters
Igneous: i twitch prime sub twice and just get called mean things =(
Comrade: 4'8" soldier
Jay: SQUAS
Savage: shbarkie
Nydekore: dr luke mario
Gray: idk planes or something
Scor: door floor poor bore
Fusion: APPROVED
Eevee: maybe i’ll play ark with you =D
Sprink: no
Tyler: grats on JMT :3
Robby: repeat what your fiance said about me :3 | it is very real schizophrenia
Lamn: worst BF2042 pilot ever
Lantard: name is super familiar i just cannot remember wtf
Proredfly: you wont be able to see my bunny blush, ever
Jack S: das poopenfarten
Daniels: the WHAT dungeon in E11
Jakub: legit the first forums post ive ever seen was your blacklist appeal
Tanner: best escort
Jason Slade: Gears of War nerd
Fool: most ragefull Canadian
Der: Always asleep when i was feeling productive grr, but fr nice working with you
Apple: Mr President, the catgirl virus has spread to the apple empire...
Cookie: beaver bozo
Inaccurate: OG bison hoof
Doggo: hasnt changed his PFP since i met him 4 years ago
Panda: if you want reznov lmk
Cryptonus: lucarios are better than cats
Alexx: omg i hate you for removing me grrr get away | fastest relapse ive ever seen
Cosmic: "the worst thing you can do in your country is your mom?" or was that the other italian i cant remember
Phill (SMT one): BIG BALD MEN
scooty: idk you that much but i really appreciate your message
Twix: E4 at PVT is fire part 2
Hoovy: dropping bombs
Django: *vacuum sounds*
Sixx: three months....
Rookieblue: "Jolt4Manager"
Yamato: not very good at space engineers
Tank: your english wasnt always great, but we 200% appreciated all of your work
FrenchJM: made fun of my french
Jess: What ever happened to you, havent heard from you in a while. hope youre okay
Moonrose: sorry for like raiding your server that one time... was not cool
Novah/Emily: buzz buzz
Vuit: acdc femboy
SBKDoll: sucks at math homework
Twix/Doomguy: getting swole
Saltygrim: tactical inactivity
Zeus: MOM THEYRE TOTEM POLING IN DBLOCK AGAINNNN
Golem: erm
Panky and Ages: suck at backrooms
Awesome: youre awesome lol
Blazzy: i forgot any quotes but youre cool
Ryan/Donny: im better than you at pvp
Squash: fever dream type conversations
Slepi: omg i miss you so much
Yohan: i dont think youve had a sober conversation ever
Sogi: trained me for CI
Utter: trained me for Nu7
Rektify: fish man
Quacksalber: duck man, very active
Ducky: i hope you end up reading this, and hope youre doing well
heres a bunch of names of people i remember but did not have the patience to write about lol
Paststeak, forgot, niro, nico, vinny, darkrats, corner, Southpaw, Acee, Frog, Chineseman, Akuto, Spray, Skelly, Islandtoad, Starr, Castro, Dogz, Camo, Woods, Kiddo, Echo, Peanuts, Lars, Chipdail, Not Jay, Mitchell Hugh, Dagger, Giga, Gyara, Core, Schoodst, Pure, Rang, Snowwx, Spoder, Lucas(idk your new name sorry), Sullivan, Frank, Terra, Banner, Vortex, Alex, Light, Saw, Fireman
Here's a big doc with a bunch of clips :3 I may add more in the future
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1RN3cY5ZIVZirt44SOh3UdLOZbVu-omVMEbnarEMaX1I/edit?usp=sharing
With that big ole rant said, this is what you should truly take away. I am so glad to have made so many friends here, and even happier that they weren't for power. My time here has been amazing and I truly wish I could stay longer, but it has been too much. I wish I could say it was an honor working with all of you, but too many people have tainted that large pool. I will be using my last 48 hours here to help Fool adjust to HCMD, and try to find a wrap for the things I will be leaving
To the ones who knew yet made no strides, thank you for nothing. You have time and time again, encounter after encounter, proven to me that this community (for the most part) doesn’t care. They don’t care about who I truly am, who I want to be, but only who I was. When asked for a lick of respect, all I have ever seen here was blatant ignorance or worse. For those who were there for me, I deeply thank you. For sticking with me, and holding me up when I could not.
You guys, gals, in between and outside of, are all awesome!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFZ3Qhn5dW8
sincerely,
CMDR/VCMDR of Nu7, Former HFTO
A1 Liberty/Psychosis/Black Sheep/Alex Mason/Tauren I
HTF/HSU head/overseer Mimir
First CI HMFTO and then last CI OFTO
Gensec MSGT + some rank in Wardens Pertinax
CI LTCOL then MAJ then LTCOL then MAJ then gone
Senior admin + Forum Diplomat + Support Supervisor
ET quota struggler
premiere club member
Lucario, Turtle and Bridget poster
Good morning quota god
J02 Jack Behind The Slaughter + Paint it Jack
Italian Goon 17
Bison Hoof King Benslaki
Owner of: Farmer Tucker, Farmer Darius XII, Reznov Klushkie, Omi-9 Last Remnants, Foxx
member of: CI BioWeapon, STARS, Iota-13 'Luxxys Soldiers', Morningstars clan
..... J0LT
I love you guys
so long oomfies