Beepis's Public Apology

[Beepis]

Pretext:

Alright I have been meaning to do this for some time now and have built up the courage to do this. After reading this I wish for no hurtful comments and it to be known that this is after months of reflection and thought about this touchy topic. I want to try to fix my mistakes and try to not "sweep this under the rug".

Context for those uninformed:

On april 4th, 2021 (about 4 months ago), me and 3 other associates (which I will not name to not tarnish their reputations) decided to stage a coup against the HOS of Gensec, Sixx while in the process try to throw COL Ape under the bus to achieve our goals. I am not going to provide our reasons as to why I did what I did to avoid pity or hatred. But long story short me and the 3 other associates formulated a plan to shit-talk Sixx behind his back and try to either get him demoted or removed entirely. The next day someone reported us to Site Administration for our actions and we were promptly demoted / removed from Gensec CMD. 

Specific apologies to those directly affected by my actions:

Sixx: I know that you probably still hate me for what I did and I 100% understand that because what I did and say was selfish, scumbaggy,  and retarded on my part. I have no grudge against you now and I want to try to make amends and try to "bury the hatchet". Ever since the day that I got removed I wanted to try to make it up to you and I regret that I did what I did, not because of what I lost but because of how I affected your branch and how hard you worked for it and I now realize that I was a bully so to speak trying to ruin someone's hard work which takes lots of time to achieve. If you want to talk feel free to DM me or talk to me in TS . Again Im am deeply sorry.

Mind and Jack S: Even though I didn't directly target you guys I still want to say that Im sorry for forcing you guys into a horrible position of trying to keep the branch afloat in me and my associates wake, having to replace all Deputy head positions and losing half of Sr. CMD from my understanding is hard to do and trying to keep morale high and keep things running, Im sorry for what I did and I don't want you all to feel resentful towards me. Feel free to talk to me if you wish.

Ape: I know that theres no bad blood between us but as someone who was significantly targeted between me and my associates I feel that you deserve an apology. As an older player and having RL going on (which I am now starting to deal with) I can understand completely why I never saw you. At the time I had the mentality of "They have to have some time to get on the server" which is a really shitty mentality. I realize that RL can get busy and overly complicated where there can be no time to get on the server. If you wish to talk to me feel free.

Sprink: I have no resentment towards you for what you did and now that I look back. I respect your decision 100% to do what you did. Yet I did put you in a bad position entirely and want to apologize for having you do everything for the FTO program in my associates wake.

Warmercarp: As the only MAJ left after my little stunt I respect that you kept a steadfast head and tried to make the best out of the bad situation that I gave to you. I do want to apologize for leaving you as the only MAJ to run Sr. CMD.

All other CMD that was affected: I personally wish to say that I am deeply sorry for the bad situations that I put you guys in, having many sub-branches and people suffer for my selfishness and stupidity.

Conclusion:

In conclusion I know that this apology was not needed but it was something I wanted, to get this huge weight off my chest. To all who were affected I want to say that I am sorry one last time and I know that I fucked up entirely but this entire situation gave me a huge reality check and put me in my place, I have since changed and from now on I want to make amends to try to repair what I have damaged. I don't want to be on a server where a decent population of it feels resentful towards me and has this aura of awkwardness. So I want to try to open up about this and try to bury this hatchet.

A lesson To Be Learned:

I learned a valuable lesson which I want everyone to take away from reading this. Talk to your superiors and try to find a solution if you have a problem with them. Dont do what I did and ruin your reputation or work over something petty

If anyone at all has any questions about ANYTHING feel free to DM me on discord at @Beepis#2214.

P.S: I know that this apology isnt enough to cover what I did, but I tried.

[Sixx]

First I'll like to say thank you for the apology, it takes a lot of courage to make something like this and I commend you for it. I'm glad you realized what you did was wrong and selfish and that's and great step in the right direction, you've already proved that you changed to me by getting CMD in E-11 and making this apology. However, after something like that where you were going to tarnish my reputation that I've been building for years, get my rank removed, and hurt Security as a whole if you weren't reported, I cannot look at you the same as I once did. Your going in the right direction and I don't think this will ever be forgotten, but by proving that you can change for the better that can help you a lot. 

[Sprink]

29 minutes ago, Sixx said:

First I'll like to say thank you for the apology, it takes a lot of courage to make something like this and I commend you for it. I'm glad you realized what you did was wrong and selfish and that's and great step in the right direction, you've already proved that you changed to me by getting CMD in E-11 and making this apology. However, after something like that where you were going to tarnish my reputation that I've been building for years, get my rank removed, and hurt Security as a whole if you weren't reported, I cannot look at you the same as I once did. Your going in the right direction and I don't think this will ever be forgotten, but by proving that you can change for the better that can help you a lot. 

I agree with what Sixx said I really appreciate you making this apology. Also don't worry I was able to keep the FTO program afloat even while Soloing it.

[xX_Assassin_Xx]

When it came to news i was very shocked, i'm glad that you are doing better. take care now

[Zack Morden]

Hello Beepis I may not have been effected by the moment but it did effect my view on you and your 3 assistants. I always believe in good people when ever I meet new people (Greatly in people that are suppose to be overseers) but what you did really...changed my view on the people that I consider to not only be Friends ... But kind of like family to me. But not only was I supprised that you still stayed on the server (When the rest left afterwards) you  Improved greatly by not only staying but by feeling bad for the shit you did, AND you also got E11 LCMD which REALLY helped improve my view on you. I thought you would be bitter slightly about what happened but you not only improved after what you did, But also PUBLICLY SAID SORRY? That takes guts to do and I respect the shit out of you for it I guess that's apart about what makes us human.

THANKS FOR NOT ONLY SAYING SORRY, BUT FOR IMPROVEING
Former SM, AND CURRENT 2LT ZACK MORDEN 

[APE]

Accepted+

 

[[GL] Fizz-y Soda]

Congrats on pushing through to do this apology. It shows a lot about your character development. Do not stop.

[Ashe Fox]

You are right to say a apology still doesn’t cover for what you did, and that is correct. But I’m still amazed that you are mature enough to be public and apologize about this. The people you did this with were horribly immature about the situation but you managed to come back from it. I’m honestly proud of ya for having the balls to say you fucked up. Ever since you got E-11 command I’m gonna be honest I was confused on how you even got it. But I can see now that maybe you deserved another chance because you seem to have changed.

[Some Weeb]

Just don't do it again the same mistake twice becomes purposeful then the apology has no meaning.