Popular Post The Light Posted January 10, 2022 Popular Post Share Posted January 10, 2022 My Resignation, it's been a long time coming, I'm surprised that I haven’t resigned after 3 weeks of me returning and immediately getting marked as Semi-Active, but I still kept going. I have no idea why I kept going, I think the motivation of just me helping was the main reason, but idk. On August 25 in 2019, I was a little baby Junior Researcher having fun roleplaying with everyone, my dream was to make it to Foundation Doctor at this time and my dream came true on December 17th of 2019. I kept going for months and a few months later there was a new position opened for High Command called Assistant Head of Research, I thought to myself “this is the time to really try my best to get this position”, but what I didn’t realize is how quick it would be to burn myself out after that month I went really inactive. Soviet has just got promoted to Foundation Doctor and I was still inactive because of my burnt out status. Then in a meeting there was an announcement… a new High Command member was announced for Research… It was Soviet… I was furious, my anger overpowered me more than anything. I fully convinced myself to resign because of someone else getting the position I attempted to work so hard for then got burnt out. Then on June 14, 2020 I posted it… My Resignation. People posted how they were gonna miss me, but at the time I was still furious so I looked past that. After that I started to play on FiveM on a whitelisted server and I was having the most fun I could have. The roleplay aspect of that was amazing. It was exactly what I was looking for. A few months passed and now the Server I was enjoying was dying because the owner and its own community was turning against each other. The server went from a high population to a low population the RP was at a low because of the low player count. I then decided to stop playing that and move on. I was so bored because I couldn’t think of any other games to play. I was an inch away from selling my computer and moving on with my life, I had then thought about Garry’s Mod again and decided “hey why don’t I check out the roster for the SCP-RP game I used to play”. I checked and saw that there were 3 people I knew and saw an opportunity to come back when the Research Manager position was open. I got reinstated and look back on my resignation post to the people that commented on it and read my old post and decided I needed to change something. I need to change something about what I should do differently so I could stay longer and be more useful. Then it clicked… I needed to stop worrying about ranks, stop worrying about trying my hardest, just enjoy and have fun on the server, and be more of a help and involved. I met lots of knew individuals that were great to hang around with that came and left. Most of the originals were gone, but talking to these new people and enjoying being around these guys, it didn’t seem like it was a problem. At this time I was enjoying the server and the RP was fine. As time went on I made it back to Foundation Doctor where I last was before I left. I was chilling there for some time not as long as before but for a little and was still helping still and not trying really hard or doing anything crazy. Then.. the unexpected happened D resigned which was lowkey sad cause I was starting to get to know more about D. Something came across my mind and It was something that happened last time. Moonrose made it to Foundation Doctor before I did and I thought to myself “do I break everything I've been saying and try my hardest to gamble DHOR for me to get burnt out again or just leave it”. I then told myself “it's a video game, you're a new man, a rank in a Garry’s Mod server isn’t the end of the world”. A few weeks passed and it’s a Friday and it’s the Command Meeting. In that meeting they had a promotion for High Command because they needed another one. Moonrose had been announced as the new DHOR for the first time. I wasn’t angry or upset, I was happy for her. Then in that moment I knew I had fixed my issue about worrying about something that isn’t real. Another few weeks passed and Tomato resigned out of the blue, everyone including me were shocked about his leave. He was one of the few people I’ve known back in 2019 to leave. A few days passed and some of the Command new when I got reinstated are no longer here which was also kind of a sad thing to happen, but as I like to say “we move”. In a command meeting not expecting anything the last announcement was Starstep’s but since he couldn’t make it Sparkle announced it. He said they have a promotion and it was “Light to Deputy Head of Research”. I was speechless, like literally speechless, didn’t you hear my speech? It was awesome. I was having the most fun I could possibly have during the 2 weeks I became High Command and possibly the most active I have been. Then something happened… Now it's either that I really burnt myself out in those 2 weeks or it was something else… I was losing motivation to get on the server. It wasn’t because of me forcing myself to get on the server when I didn’t need to it was more of. What is there to do on the server that makes a difference between High Command and Foundation Doctor. Like I know, I have more responsibilities than Foundation Doctor, but there's something missing that I didn’t think about, what would be the point of getting on the server as High Command if research is already in a state which once you make it to Foundation Doctor or anything else what CAN you do. Roleplaying would be a reliable option, but people don’t RP anymore, these days it’s all about SCP’s that are consistently trying to breach which makes the Foundation chaotic. Also I personally think that for Combative CMD/HCMD it would be easier because they have something to do every time, because these days combat is more fun than RP because barely people RP these days. I will not be shouting out individual people because I think that’s just cringe lmao and also u prob know if u one of the people of would've written about. JMT/SMT: Thank you ladies for working on this gud server. Everyone that met me: It was a fun ride but, its time to say goodbye, I will not take a spot up if I think I would be incapable doing my responsibilities, but hey maybe someone else takes over my position and does better then me also this was made in like 1 month advanced so like yea.... also this sounds cringe but fook it... too lazy to edit it.... also hoovy sucks at dbd and 1 last thing.... remember the O5 Council 1 6 Former "Foundation Doctor and a Medical Doctor are 2 god damn different things." -Light "Can you heal me."-Entire Foundation "Ok Sophia"-Arium Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mark001 Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 :((( Police RP (retired): Staff | PD Major | SWAT MSGT | Blaze President Imperial RP (retired): Naval Commodore | Staff & Gamemaster Military RP (retired): USMC Captain | DI LT | kamikaze pilot Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Adams the research one Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 We still playin echo vr? "Read Lesearcher" Former ranks: Research Administrator + Professor RRH Analyst Zulu 99CCs The Patrol Officer (Owner) Snowmen (Owner) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tazza Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 We will miss you light! Freedom at last. Former: Assistant Inspector, Head of Longshot, Research Assistant Supervisor & Operations Supervisor, G.O.C. Officer & Head of bulldozers, CI COL, EOI D-2, DJ Former: Scout Captain, Second Lieutenant, Senior Crewman, Storm Commando Captain. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Super_Smitty Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 -Support don't go Senior Event Team | Deputy Head of Research | Superstar Badge Winner | Foundation Star Award RFA - Agent Sigma 0A0 / RRH Analyst - Sierra 17 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Coltable Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 cya bro Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Piller Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 Take it easy Light! It was good getting to know you. SCP-RP Head of Staff | Ethics Committee Chairman Former Nu-7 VCMDR l Former GenSec CPT Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Flixy Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 damn Nu7 MSGT | Ex CI R&D AIN | Ex Sec 2LT | Ex OS | Ex CI 2LT [CC] Owns: OPIF - Omnipurpose Infantry Force | Charple on Vacation | Vonzen Plushi | CI Take Force 'Blackhawks' [CC] On: Farmer Jakub | MTF Sigma-66 | E-11 Rangers 'Reborn' | TF2 Solider | CI TF2 Heavy | Obama | Lone Wolf | Combine | STARS Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kush Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 sadness Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tomato Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 You will always be a valued member of Research and a great friend! Nothing will change that. Good luck as a soundcloud rapper :p Former DHOR Tomato Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mr.Meeseeks 123 Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 You were one of the nicest HCMD in all of GL sad to see ya go man Ranks: Former DHWD SEC MAJ | Former Nu7 SM | Former Research RM | Former Foxtrot-15 | EXM CCs: (Owns) Omnipurpouse Furry Force, (On) MTF Rev 26 'Vigilant Hero' , Snowmen , MTF Unit Heaven Ascendants A Normal D-Class "Efforts and courage are not enough without purpose and direction." --- JFK Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CyClone Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 take care light. You were one of my favorites to be around when I was in research. o7 Retried: CI LTCMDR CI R&D AIN, E11 CPT, and Research Assistant Manager. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[GL] Inaccurate Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 gay play EFT sometime with me "Pay increase declined. Welcome to the Foundation, get used to it." -O5-6 3rd time Head of Medical Staff | Ex-Director of Research and Security | Ex-Director of Utility | Ex-Senior Admin for SCP-RP | Ex-Admin for TTT Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Average Pipebomb enjoyer Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 Crab game tryhard O7 E11 2LT || Ex CI 2LT || Average Metal gear rising enjoyer || Ex Nu7 2LT Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Head Admin Weiss Posted January 10, 2022 Head Admin Share Posted January 10, 2022 Man that was a big paragraph; Your poor english teacher. Anyway, take care; I'll bother you with gifs later. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jack (utility one) Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 dang light I was hoping to have way more fun times, but I also go to know you more than when you were around the first time. I'll be sure to try to catch up everynow and than and play some games with ya man!! Have a good one my friend! There are gods in Alabama: Jack Daniel's, high school quarterbacks, trucks, big tits, and also Jesus. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saint :) Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 damn stinky do be leaving tho take care stinky, it was fun messing around with you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sprink Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 I will interrogate you with furry noises Deputy Head of Security | Executive Event Team | Admin | Forum Diplomat | Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chombos Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 Light im not gonna lie, You were a True OG man. I joined around the time you came back and It was really fun when I used to play research You were always so kind and were really good at being DHOR. Heck you promoted me multiple times on occasions and that's what really shocked me. Im so sad to see you go It really hurts me in the feels, Ol Senior Technician, Chombos is wishing you the best of luc In the future and may it shine bright in your favor. Former E11/R&D Senior Command | Former IMP RP HCMD | Donator | "when you're drunk as fuck, you feel no pain" - Yohan 2022 | Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Yato Sensei Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 Damn sad to see you go mate, hopefully you reach the goals you are pushing for! Joined 09/30/2020Retired 11/12/2022Former Security SFC || Former MTF Omi9 MSGT || Former CI CPT/MAJ || Former Nu7 LTCOL/VCMDR || Former E11 CPL || Former Maintenance Professional || Former D5 CPT || Former Senior Medic || Former Advanced Researcher | Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dick Grayson Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 L bozo just be inactive like me! jk good luck wherever you go! EX MAJ In MIL EX A2 In E4 Current VCMDR Of Sarkic Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ya Boi Sawrunner Posted January 10, 2022 Share Posted January 10, 2022 pain we are all gonna miss you dude Daddy D Boi |Previously CI SGM XB1 and RAM|Formerly Agent Starboi| CCs: Frank West | Doctor Samuel Hayden | Solid Snake | CI Recon Force | Drip Hank Hill | The O7 Bois (Owner of Sunsetters) The Femboi With The Fubar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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