I disappear Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 I am formally resigning from Everything in SCP-RP. The reasons are as follows: - My anxiety disorder cant properly handle the stress. - The community is overly toxic. - Some command members are corrupt. - I was thinking about leaving anyway. I want to play different games than the same old thing. - I know I already listed it but here it is again: Anxiety - The feeling of always having to be on tears through me and activates my anxiety - Anxiety - Anxiety - Always worrying that I did something wrong - So..... a lot Anxiety RP Servers are just not healthy for my mental state. Half the time I wake up in the middle of the night just thinking about the server. Do not be over burdened like me. If you are having thoughts of suicide call 1-800-273-8255 I suggest that if you are having anxiety related to the server you should probably just stop. I should have done this a long time ago. Shout out to some of the people I like - Cogs: Wonderful friend - Bacon: Awesome guy - Jack: I will miss being under your command bud - Nefario: I will miss being under your command also. - Beanz: Also pretty cool guy - Innacurate: - Borealis : Aurora Borealis - Mint: Always liked you - Surge: Wrongly removed - Kami: Always pog - Smokey: Glad you trained me for medical - Brick: Will take my spot in medical someday - Lew: Minge (jk <3) I was gonna make a list of people I hate but it would not be a professional resignation if that was the case. Here are some lyrics to my favorite Fallout NV song. Heartaches by the number, troubles by the score Everyday you love me less, each day I love you more Yes, I've got heartaches by the number, a love that I can't win But the day that I stop counting, that's the day my world will end Heartache number one was when you left me I never knew that I could hurt this way And heartache number two was when you came back again You came back but never meant to stay Yes, I've got Heartaches by the number, troubles by the score Everyday you love me less, each day I love you more Yes, I've got heartaches by the number, a love that I can't win But the day that I stop counting, that's the day my world will end Heartache number three was when you called me And said that you were coming back to stay With hopeful heart I waited for your knock on the door I waited but you must have lost your way Yes, I've got Heartaches by the number, troubles by the score Everyday you love me less, each day I love you more Yes, I've got heartaches by the number, a love that I can't win But the day that I stop counting, that's the day my world will end Here are the lyrics to my favorite slipknot song Undo these chains, my friend, I'll show you the rage I've hidden Perish the sacrament, swallow but nothing's forgiven You and I can't decide which of us was taken for granted Make amends, some of us are destined to be outlived [Chorus] Step inside, see the Devil in I Too many times we've let it come to this Step inside, see the Devil in I You'll realize I'm not your Devil anymore [Verse 2] Under the words of men, something is tempting the father Where is your will, my friend? Insatiates never even bother You and I, wrong or right, traded a lie for the leverage In between the lens in light, you're not what you seem [Chorus] Step inside, see the Devil in I Too many times we've let it come to this Step inside, see the Devil in I You'll realize I'm not your Devil I'm not your Devil anymore [Bridge] Your station is abandoned Fooled you 'cause I know what you've done Sensation, deprivation You should've burned when you turned on everyone [Chorus] So step inside, see the Devil in I Too many times we've let it come to this Step inside, see the Devil in I I know you'll find your answers in the end Step inside, see the Devil in I You'll realize I'm not your Devil anymore [Outro] So step inside Step inside See the devil in I See the devil in I 4 4 'Cause you can't feel my anger You can't feel my pain You can't feel my torment Driving me insane Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ashh Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 (edited) Sir hope you have fun with life . but F sir Edited July 23, 2020 by Lil_Chan Former: Nu-7 Captain | Event Team Member | Maintenance ProfessionalCurrently D-0007 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jack (utility one) Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 BRUH NOOOOOO I will always miss you my friend. Come back whenever you will always have a place on this server. I wish the best for you and for you to get better, if you ever wanna vibe or talk go ahead and hit me up. I miss you already There are gods in Alabama: Jack Daniel's, high school quarterbacks, trucks, big tits, and also Jesus. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Excabriel Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 i love you gordan 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
I disappear Posted July 23, 2020 Author Share Posted July 23, 2020 BTW I will probably be fuckin around some darkrp servers if you ever wanna find me again 'Cause you can't feel my anger You can't feel my pain You can't feel my torment Driving me insane Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jack II Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 I'm gonna miss seeing you in this community gordan, take care and I wish you the best. Rejected from the gaminglight community Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mint Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 Gordan you were always one of my favorites in the community. I truly am going to miss you. Have a good time in wherever you decide to go and stay safe! MTF Nu7 Major || E11 1LT || Old CI SGT || Ret.LeadResearcher || || RHO-36 Penumbra Squad || || Mikes Favorite Son || OH3 RRH || Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PixelatedPancakes Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 1 minute ago, Mint said: Gordan you were always one of my favorites in the community. I truly am going to miss you. Have a good time in wherever you decide to go and stay safe! You were a great Nu7, and an even greater Staff member, Godspeed ~pixel 1 Current : Former : Nu7 COL, HSU Founder (I wrote the SOP so I'm very important clearly), Nu7 MAJ x 2, E11 2LT, SCP Senior Mod, TTT SA, JvS Admin, TS Support 3, HSU Commissar (), RRH Guardian 01 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[GL] Inaccurate Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 Damn, Im gonna miss you Gordan, you were an outstanding member of the community and I loved working with you in Medical and Staff. Good luck with future stuff. "Pay increase declined. Welcome to the Foundation, get used to it." -O5-6 3rd time Head of Medical Staff | Ex-Director of Research and Security | Ex-Director of Utility | Ex-Senior Admin for SCP-RP | Ex-Admin for TTT Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Creamey Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 See ya later Gordan. Really gonna miss you. [SCP-RP] Retired Head Of Security || Retired Field Work Manager || Retired OM3 || Retired Event Team Member [JvS no more] Former FIRST The Grand Inquisitor Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
General Borealis Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 Man i've never really been good at goodbyes but im gonna miss you a lot, hope to see you back here once again. Former Assistant Head Of Maintenance & Engineering You're a winner kid, don't you ever forget that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hope Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 This sucks. . . See you later, Gordan. osu! achiever? I don't know Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
verycrankyredhead Posted July 23, 2020 Share Posted July 23, 2020 it was fun see ya m8 Retired Research Low Command Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cogs Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 NOONONONONONOOOO GORDAN, YOUR WERE ONE OF THE FUCKING GREATEST PEOPLE ON THE SERVER, FRIEND ME ON DISCORD SO WE CAN STILL TALK, I LOVE YOU MAN "The first draft of everything is Shit" - Ernest Hemingway Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hope Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 Just now, Cogs said: NOONONONONONOOOO GORDAN, YOUR WERE ONE OF THE FUCKING GREATEST PEOPLE ON THE SERVER, FRIEND ME ON DISCORD SO WE CAN STILL TALK, I LOVE YOU MAN Same. 1 osu! achiever? I don't know Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pie Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 (edited) See ya man. We will all miss you. Edited July 24, 2020 by MyPie (GL) Ret. MTF Nu-7 2LT | Professional dipshit | Melancholy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Creamey Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 11 minutes ago, Cogs said: NOONONONONONOOOO GORDAN, YOUR WERE ONE OF THE FUCKING GREATEST PEOPLE ON THE SERVER, FRIEND ME ON DISCORD SO WE CAN STILL TALK, I LOVE YOU MAN 10 minutes ago, Hope said: Same. [SCP-RP] Retired Head Of Security || Retired Field Work Manager || Retired OM3 || Retired Event Team Member [JvS no more] Former FIRST The Grand Inquisitor Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Surge Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 Bruh my favorite command member leaving this is wack af, im gonna miss you dude, Add me on steam if you can man so we can play other games , be safe dude an relax Ret MTF Nu7 1LT SFTO Surge| Ret OH2 RRH , Retired SM Gensec | No officer that 24Pounds of plutonium isn't mine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[GL] Smokey Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 I had fun playing beside you. I’m gonna miss you buddy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BrickHead Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 Dude This Resignation was probably the one that hurt the most, I wish the absolute best for you And im sorry it had to end this way, I hope i can make you proud if I get cmd Doctor | E11 SM / Senior Ranger Salami Lid | Moderator / Ex Event Team "In this world you either crank that soulja boy or it cranks you" - Some Philosopher Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BadTimeInbound Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 Oof. Welp. Good luck out there bud. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[GL] Dtscalice Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 Awwwww Gordon you were one of the most fun Command Members to be around, Thank you for Putting up with my Shenanigans as Medical ~ACM Price Truth is just a matter of perspective. The duty of every soldier is to protect the innocent ~Captain Price (Modern Warfare 2) Former CMD Positions: E11 1LT, Medical Chief Manager, CI LT and SRIC, Alpha 1 CPL, RRH Squad Lead. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
enuz 💣 Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 4 minutes ago, [GL] Dtscalice said: Gordon you were one of the most fun Command Members to be around, Thank you for Putting up with my Shenanigans as Medical Former Head of Janitorial | HCZ man geer | lvl 70 life wizard | Roblox Clothing Designer Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kami- Amaterasu Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 BRUH NOOOOOOOO GORDAN I FUCKING LOVE YOU I"ll always have a spot in my heart fo your. Hopefully everything will get better and you'll be able to come back someday. I'll miss you for real man. You always brought a smile to my face [SCP-RP] Retired: CI RND DHOR/RA/CIN, Engineer/OS, Omi9 Maj, SET. [IMP-RP] Previous: CMO Captain, SFL, Tank VCMDR Shock VCMDR GMVIII Officially Married to Mary 2/23/23 EMPRESS OF D-BLOCK Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Former LR Monika Returned Posted July 24, 2020 Share Posted July 24, 2020 I will miss you comrade Former Sargent Negev Line monika RFA,HMR,RIG, Longest lasting LR CI RND Field Researcher, Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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