Steam Name: Smols
Ingame Name: Garth
SteamID: STEAM_0:1:89820460
Ban Length: Permanent
Admin that Banned you: ArmyGuy
Reason for Ban: "Come back when you want to show respect/Asking for a perma ban/No respect/Racism XA LOT/Spamming chat/False use of adverts -- appeal @ gaminglight.com ArmyGuy"
Dispute: If I'm being completely honest, what I did to get a permanent ban has almost no excuses whatsoever. What I did was very childish, spiteful, and overall unnecessary. However, at the point where I committed this ridiculous act, I was at an edge that I was quite honestly not mature enough to pull myself away from. I was fueled by anger and dissidence that was completely uncalled for in all circumstances, but yet, I couldn't control it. The things I had worked for so long to achieve seemed to be crumbling around me, and I didn't know how to handle it. To escape this, I did just about the dumbest thing anyone could ever do; I spammed a racial slur that is never okay to say in a public game lobby for everyone to see. For this, I received a completely justified permanent ban at the time. Over the past however many months however, this very action has, as stupid as it may sound, eaten away at me. I've seen my friends list shrink and I've lost communication with some of the coolest people I have ever met on any server in any game. This has sincerely bothered me, and it brought me to a point of reflection at which I realized how big of a mistake I actually made. I realized this fully around two months ago, when I personally went into the teamspeak and waited for hours to speak with any SMT that was willing to speak with me just to say sorry. I felt so bad about what I had done that I just needed to know that someone knew about it. At this time, I honestly wasn't even considering appealing, but then I remembered how much fun the server brought to my life. I remember being so excited to get onto GamingLight every day; I could role play with a community I knew I could rely on, and I threw that away for what? I threw it away because I disagreed with how things were going within a singular hour on the server. I threw away a thousand hours on a game I cared so much for, simply because I didn't get my way one time. Before this, I was blessed with many opportunities that were presented to me, and I abandoned everything these opportunities gave me because I was too immature to know my place. At this point, as you're reading this, you may be asking yourself: "So why should you be unbanned?" This is the same question I've been asking myself for a while, and I think I've come up with an answer that is satisfying to myself. Throughout my time on GamingLight, I caused almost no problems before my ban. I had little to no warns (anywhere from 2-4, I honestly can't remember at this point) for very trivial things, one of which I received for breaking NLR on one of my first days. I made and edited several official documents for State and was trusted with full Roster access, something that I did not touch after being banned at all. In addition to all of this, I've matured a great amount since my ban. I'm turning 18 in 5 days, and I've been accepted into college. Because of all of these things, I truly believe I could come back and be a valuable addition to the GamingLight community as a whole. Thank you for your time in reading this, and I hope you genuinely consider this as not only an appeal, but also a genuine apology.
-Garth
